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Feeling anxious is one of the greatest feelings I cant seem to put my finger on. I know its self inflicted; and that it’s based on my habits and how I react to certain things - - regardless at the end of the day its in my control and I still let that feeling overwhelm me.

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Today was an overall good Monday. Had a productive day at work, got some painting in, groceries, ran errands, etc.

Isn’t it funny how just checking things off a “list” makes us feel productive or satisfied? Like, think about it - we’ll write “laundry” on our to do list. Thats a very preposterous thing humans do… think about it. Laundry is taking dirty clothes and throwing them into a machine that does everything for us. How is that being productive? and yet just because it’s on our list and we cross it off it brings a sense of satisfaction.

hmm.

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Completely different thought, that I’ve been thinking about every single day lately. I’m about 5.5 months of working from home. It has FLOWN by. The past week or so has really bogged me down with emotions of feeling trapped inside my apartment. I needed to switch up my work environment a little bit this morning.

I didn’t do anything revolutionary, I simply switched which seat at my kitchen table I worked at. And believe it or not, it helped.

I really should make an effort to go work out of a different space or coffee shop soon. Its weighing on me.

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Even with the above said, I’ve still been able to be really creative - which has even surprised me. I’m looking forward to all of us getting out of this situation, hopefully together, so we can all be more creative… together.

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Good night.

DF