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This entry isn't for the light-hearted.

Read that again, and then read below if you choose.

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The greatest thing that happened to my life was my ex fiance walking out of my life in January of 2018. 4 months before our scheduled wedding it was the absolute last thing I or anyone else could have imagined. That blindside, reality check, slap in the face...how ever you want to look at it - was the most beautiful self realization point I could have ever encountered.

I was brought to my knees. I begged for them to stay. I'll never forget that feeling of helplessness. That feeling as someone hands you back an engagement ring that you spend so hard working for and walking out the door. It's a feeling you never forget.

Within the next 6 months after that I gave up drinking (I'm back to socially doing so now), I went on a no carb-low carb diet, threw myself at working out and work itself, and lost 30 pounds. I started experimenting with different activities to occupy my time. After 5.5 years of breathing with someone else, you forget how to take care of yourself. Its a brand new life and the world doesn't give a fuck.

The biggest lesson I learned is that no matter where we are in our lives, everyone will desert and leave you. Your parents will die, your cousins will move and not communicate, your friends will grow apart. Alls we are left with is ourselves.

Take care of yourself, we are all we have.