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After 8 weeks of working from home, have I become content with this new way of life?
I was having my bi-weekly therapy session (virtually of course) on thursday this week and she asked me how I was doing. I responded that over the past week - week and a half, I’ve actually been okay with fewer depressive episodes and sadness.
So naturally her question back to me was why, and pushed me to explain.
I came up with the conclusion of a few things:
I turned off all my notifications on my phone. My screen time went down (per one of my last posts). I actually think this causes anxiety - at least after a couple weeks I come to this conclusion. So i’m more efficient over all and less distracted paying attention to what others are doing.
Everyones in the same position. It doesnt matter if youre rich, famous, theres no “fomo” - fear of missing out. This is something I use to believe was fake and some millennial / gen z bullshit we came up with. But it’s real. So theres none of that due to the pandemic.
After 8 weeks, quarantine has forced me to only focus on what I want to do with my time. Things that make me happy are my only priority, because I cannot do anything else.
In light of the last bullet, I also started focusing on creating content for social media that I want to create. I find myself posting work that felt a bit forced because its what everyone was expecting. And its not that I only post or promote stuff I dont enjoy, because I do enjoy it - I think society subconsciously dictates what we do though.
I have time for myself. I work a lot, as discussed over the past 0139 posts. Now I have so much time that I find myself playing video games for an hour or two. And theres nothing wrong with that. I don’t need to always be working.
I’ve gotten better at not letting others influence my mood. I wear my emotions on my sleeve so one wrong sentence can trigger my emotions and derail me for the entire day. I’ve gotten a lot better at controlling that. (same goes for a positive thing making my day better - not always negative)
Am I now after 2 months of quarantine thriving? This week, maybe. Next week, who knows.
Here’s the weather this morning when I woke up, and then 2 hours later:
It’s gonna be May alright…
