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Every few weeks this happens. Maybe I don’t take the correct precautions. Maybe I’m not as aware as I should be. But today my mind and body shut down do to overloading myself.

Today was the beginning of my burn out.

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I walk into my second job at 5:30 pm for a 7pm start. Theres always about an hour of prep work to do before hand. As I start working my energy just evaporates out of me. I watch myself become a moody, upset, angry person.

You have to remember, I choose this life. I choose to work 18 hour days - no one tells me to.

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And then I go to the back room and I take 9 deep breaths about 10 minutes before the class starts. 9 deep breaths. One… two… and so on.

It’s my reset. It’s how I get my brain to understand that everythings fine.

After all, I need to put on a show for the people.